I tried it. And trying fell spiralling into nothing. Something. Somewhere. Somewhen. When time passes inchingly and in the blink of an eye. And swirling in emotions blank as the snow and irritable. Not understanding them. Not fully getting it. Now exhaustion sets in a I swirl around in the dregs of my bathwater knowing eventually I will go down the drain too.
So, I had my MRI yesterday for my back. It didn’t take long and I fell asleep in the machine. LOL. Next Wednesday I have another doctor’s appointment at 9am, when I can go in and discuss the images with my doctor and ask questions about the shot I am going to get. I’m going home Sunday with Devin because he has work in Upland Monday. Then he will head back to Lake Elsinore while I stay in Rancho for the week. Doctor’s appointment Wednesday and Thanksgiving Thursday are my main plans for the week. I also want to hit the gym again and keep working on that. I’m doing better. I have been able to do some walking and some yoga. Hopefully this is the start of being able to get healthy again since my leg has thrown me so off track.
It is one of those days where I look at you during our normal routine and realize how much I still love you.
We watched Nathan find his limit and surpass it tonight. I got my new painkiller this morning. Life is going in strange directions so much of the time recently… I’m not sure what exactly is going on anymore… bedtime with Devin. At least he is a wonderful constant in my ever changing world.
