- raging storm.
- power outage.
- creepy completely dark neighborhood.
- waking up early.
- energy drinks.
- lunch at claim jumper with devin’s boss and fellow employees or whatever.
- scrooge the musical with them all after.
- the whole claim jumper-scrooge christmas party took place while i was in 4 inch heels and a dress. it was kinda cold.
- the musical was kinda bad actually.
- then into normal clothes.
- unload boxes of color guard rifles.
- to corona.
- load up all the costumes for the next show scott is doing. neauty and the beast.
- the costumes are kinda cool.
- worked really hard.
- uh, got paid $20 for it. which i didn’t want. whatever.
- came home.
- crashed out all night.
now today i have to get everything ready for my dad to go to work and get out of here at noon to be in lake elsinore at 1 to unload all the costume stuff, then bacvk home to play gw tonight. going to be another long day i think.
"I hate the treadmill everyday
I hate the mundane things they say
the boredom sets in 9 to 5
at night that's when i come alive
I long to be connected
I long to be affected
the bright lights beckon me
beckon me to you
[1st chours]
I like it when we go to extremes
I like it when you enter my dreams
I like it when i feel your touch
I like it.. I like it so much
There must be more to life than this
this life i surely will not miss
to spend my time waiting in line
in search for something the grand design
I long to be connected
I long to be affected
the bright lights beckon me
beckon me to you
[chours]
I like it when we go to extremes
I like it when you enter my dreams
I like it when i feel your touch
I like it.. I like it so much
I like it when we're one on one
I like it when we come undone
I like it when we go to extremes
you let me, let me live my dreams
oh oh oh
I long to be connected
I long to be affected
the bright lights beckon me
beckon me to you
[Repeat Chorus]
I like it so much
oh oh oh
I like it so much
oh oh oh
I like it so much
I like it, I like it so much
so much so much
I like it so much"
i win epically at life for making the audio work on this computer again because no one else would do it. i win. now i can listen to music whenever.
i miss emma and brittany darby. sometimes when i rant, i feel like i’m ranting at them, although i write it at devin. i don’t know why. it kinda helps though.
((fuck you that you couldn’t.))
- i’m tired.
- i don’t know what to feel anymore.
- i’m still really hurt. you should have been able to say the words” i want you.” you always make me say the things i want, but you couldn’t say that to me. that really hurt me. maybe i’m overdramatic but it hurt me.
- it is nice, however, that you trusted me with your password.
- giving me your password so i can play your game doesn’t make up for hurting me like that.
- i don’t even think you know it hurt me so much, or that it still bothers me.
- i hate runny stuffy noses.
- i have a runny stuffy nose.
- runny stuffy noses lead to red, raw noses.
- i hate red, raw noses.
- i’m getting a red, raw nose.
- fuck.
- people were incredibly generous on my game today. it was nice.
- birthday party for andrew this saturday. being all social and pretending.
- gah my skin is calling for that bad habit again.
- i should sleep.
- i should end this list now.
waking to up deal with my dad having low blood sugar. now on the internet, soon to be playing my game with you. making coffee. i have a feeling this is going to be a long day and i’m not looking forward to it.
i’m happy and sad about the final harry potter movies.
when the last harry potter movie is finished, my childhood will officially end.
ever since i finished the 4th harry potter book, i’ve been waiting for the next one. that wait is exciting. after the final book came out, i had no more books to wait for. it was a really sad thing.
and now that the movies will be finished, the excitement for “the next harry potter” will be too.
the adventure of harry potter being over is the official end of my childhood. and it makes me sad.
but i’m so excited for the last 2 movies. they will be epic.
